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In the words of that dyke-ish popstar, Pink, "i'm not dead." :D
However, I haven't updated my LJ since the 14th of April, so it may seem like it to some of you! I thought that a post was definately due. I really hope your all doing well...I have been checking alot of your journals every so often, so I'm not completely out of the loop!
I got my A-level results a while ago, I got and A in English and B's in Sociology and Media so i'm quite pleased as it meant I got into the Uni I wanted to go to by getting exactly the grades I needed. :D. In two weeks time I will be attending Queen Mary University of London in Mile End to study English Literature. And this friday ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) complacenttruth and I will be moving into our 2 bed maisonette flat in Bow, which will be very daunting yet extremely fun i'm sure.
I've been reflecting alot recently about the life I have here and what I will leave behind, i've got pretty close to a few people over the past few years here and i've been getting on really well with my Mum, it's amazing to live with her again, and i'm so sad that it hasn't been for very long especially as she could do with my support right now, I will miss everyone dearly!
I went to Baraka on saturday night for the last time before I go away, I've forgotten how good it was, I wish I had gone more times recently. I met some lovely people too...(well i'd met them before, but this was the first time i'd spent all night and then the day after with them- properly talking). A lovely guy called Sam, and a bright red haired bubbly girl called Rosie. It's not often that I click instantly with people, but this instance it weirdly happened with both of them straight away. They said to me "we'll miss you" and I responded "i'll miss you both too." And strangely after only knowing them properly for 14 hours or so, what we said to each other was so right, and so completely true. If only I had met them before now. :(
Now it may seem that i'm unhappy about moving away, thats not the case, yes i'm sad at letting go of the past, but at the same time i'm extremely excited about what the future will hold for me in London, i'm so determined to do well and I WILL go far! I will also be so glad to see some of you more regularly..i've missed you all loads (you know who you are!)
I'm sure Loz and I will be having some sort of housewarming style party at some point after we've all settled in, some of you will be invited, watch this space!
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[14 Apr 2006|12:42am] |
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I Saw Placebo on tues night at Alexandra Palace. There are really no words to describe how amazing it was!
I was really near the front and they literally played the new album in its entirity, I was thinking that it was my favourite when I first downloaded it months ago, but hearing it live definately confimed this.
They played some old classics too. And I cried when they played 'Twenty Years'..how fucking emo. haha <3
They also played the cover of Kate Bush's 'Running up that hill,' which i love, this also made the tear ducts well up a little. haha..i'm so gay, but I dont care, it really was fantastic.
<3
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Will it ever actually happen?
I'm constantly searching for that one person, one idea, that one place or that one perfect moment that will rescue me from my life. Maybe its not even about salvation from life, but being awoken. That one feeling that will actually make me feel completely and truely alive that I never have experienced before. My fear is whether it will ever actually happen, and when it does will it just pass me by? Will I be able to grab hold of it?
I grab hold of something that I view as being as close as possible to this thing i'm desperately searching for..never wanting to let it go in fear of not being able to find it again. Even though I know deep down that it will never live up to the aforementioned "perfect" thing, however I still cling on to it. But I know now..while i'm still clinging on I will never have the chance to find what it is i'm really looking for, that perfect person, that one perfect moment, that will make my heart beat like it never has before, my skin tingle from head to toe and send the adrenaline shooting through my veins, taking me away, causing me to feel entirely alive. That feeling we were promised since birth.
True love.
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Okay boys and girls.
I'm doing my critical research project on patriarchy influencing women film directors in thier choices during film making...
So basically.. I want you to recommend me some good films directed by women.#
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That aside, I hope your all doing well, I haven't updated in a long time because I'm lazy when it comes to Livejournal these days and i'm often too busy to get time to update...
Anyway, things are going well with me.. i'm having to make all my decisions on where to go to uni at the moment and its all a bit daunting, I went to visit sussex uni at the weekend and it seems quite nice. hmmm?
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[02 Sep 2005|02:39am] |
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When i'm typing why cant I say "that" "the" and "then" anymore?
Whenever i type these days it comes out as "teh" taht" and "tehn", every single time unless i conciously try not to do it and type carefully, I dont know whats changed, I never used to do it ever. And my typing speed hasn't really increased. So yeah? hmmmmmm?
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[11 Aug 2005|11:44pm] |
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Ugh.
I hate it when people act like complete cunts.. then a little while later they are like "sorry, i'm sorry" and it's all meant to be okay .... why don't you just not act like it in the first place.
And i'm not talking about when people snap or are just a little bit grumpy, I mean when people consciously act obnoxious and do and say things that they know will piss you off or upset you.
These days people use "sorry" far too much. It's like a get out of jail free card, they think thay can behave however they want but as long as they say "sorry" at the end of it then its all okay, then when your still off with them after they have apologised they then get all funny about it. I really don't think that they have the right to be miffed with you because things arn't fine after theyve apologised, it was them who was being an asshole in the first place....
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I sometimes think I might read into things too much, take them too seriuosly, or take them to heart when I shouldnt. Other people have thought so too, maybe its what i'm studying at college causing me to read into things and think about them too much...
Maybe its this and...
The fact I might just be the type of person to think about things too much, worry about them and amplify them in my head to be so much bigger than they are.... My mum is the same, shes always been the kind of person to worry about anything and everything.. recently with things being bad she works herself up into a hysterical state causing herself to actually be physically sick.
Anyway.. It's a problem, I don't know whether someone is being off with me or acting funny or i'm just being over paranoid/analytical.
I question whether it is actually just the people because its only happening recently.. I never used to feel paranoid about things.... But then again my state of mind at the moment is more unstable (and I dont mean that in OMGDZZz im a fucking crazy chick, not at all, I like to think I am exceptionally sane/grounded).... but I mean the general things in my life are alot less steady, causing me to question so many things about myself, whats happening in my life, whos in my life, where my life is heading.. etc.
Maybe I'm just over questioning everything. Which is exactly what i'm doing now. Maybe I should stop with the "?" and start with the "."
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Tomorrow Loz and I are going to go see the new art installation in the modern art gallery in our beloved city (Oxford)... I'm quite sceptical, my taste in art is very particular, even more so with modern art. I tend to think the majority of it is pretentious wank with real proper talent much too few and far between.
Then after/before we will be doing a bit of shopping and meeting up with Nancy who I havent seen in so long <3.
And then probabaly get drunk. :D
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Directions: Type "(your name) is" with the quotes, into a Google search then pick out your favorite 10 responses. Copy, then repost your responses:
Ashley is free to use this information for any purpose it deems appropriate,
including, but not limited to, marketing purposes
Ashley is located in far northeastern Indiana on the borders of Steuben and ...
The north 1/3 of Ashley is located in Steuben County
Ashley is now ready to get down to business
Ashley is presently completing a half-hour television program (kinda true, but 10 minutes, actually..haha)
Ashley is the sweetest little girl, with always a happy bounce to her walk
Ashley is chewing on her feet a lot and may need to be checked
Ashley is the first student to be kicked out of Fame Academy.
Ashley is married to her prince and race car
Ashley is currently obsessed with her new Chanel watch
Ashley is very friendly to people and pets. When playing with other dogs, she can
be so pushy
Ashley is played by Janelle Corlass Brown. Janelle says about Ashley: "I think
she's a great girl. She is smart, but she doesn't always show it.
Ashley is our newest office resident. She is a whopping twenty-two and a half pounds of pure love and sleek grey coat. A rather nice size dog, unfortunately, Ashley is a CAT!
Okay thats more than 10 but i got carried away. HAHAH<3A
(Edit) - This song is fucking amazing, I cant wait for the new album!!!!!! <3
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[29 Jul 2005|01:14am] |
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Ella and I are going to popstarz friday night. We are proper FAGging it up like propa gayo homo stylee, it will be queer. Then on saturday a combination of Amy's b-day party thing and fucked by rock... I dont know how it will all fit together... but it will.. somehow.
In other news, I love outsmarting people, its fun.
I have lots of pictures to post up, sometime I'll get round to doing it. I also have lots of stuff up on ebay, i'll post the link when ive put it all up.
Hope everyones doing well and I hope to catch up with you all soon
Also..
Edit- from my last post - I dont think Ashton Kutcher is fitter than my boy. (happy now? ;p)
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My boyfriend just played an evil, evil, joke on me.
Words cannot describe how angry I am at myself for being so gullible to believe it, and so angry at him for doing it!
But at the same time I admire him for being able to do it so convinceingly. Ugh I luff him really but my god am I angry!!! hahaha
He's like the new Ashton Kutcher from that punk'd show only not as fit. hahahah ;p
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[12 Jul 2005|06:01pm] |
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Everything was going so well recently, I knew something had to go wrong...
Basically I lost EVERYTHING on my computer.... for unknown reasons. In the past when ive lost things it was due to viruses, so it left me time to back up most of the important things before the computer got completely infected and I had to reinstall windows.
This time, I just the turn the computer on as normal, it comes up with some strange error message ive never seen before "saying that recent addition of hardware/software caused errors, start in safe mode and remove files" etc or something along those lines, but when i try all the different safe modes it comes up with the same message, leaving me no other option other than to reinstall windows.
So basically I lost over 9gb of music that wasnt backed up. This makes me cry. :'(
What also makes me cry is that ive lost so many pictures, work, and more importantly personal stuff that people have sent me etc.
So.. If any one wants to help me out in my time of aural need, then you can send me a cd full of mp3 treats. Just email me/add me to msn - prosthetic__heart@hotmail.com so I can give you my postal address.
And if your really enthusiastic you can have a look at my myspace and see my music taste http://www.myspace.com/2144816
To anyone who helps me out you will be payed in love, liquid, or sexual favours (subject to my choice ;p)
<3333333 x x x
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Well.... Seems I havent actually made a post since the 25th of April. Ashley is a lazy boy. Love him.
I will make a more substantial post later and update on my life over the past few months. And i'll post some pictures too because i'm looking mighty fine......;D haha
Anyway. NIN on tuesday was amazing!!!! Extra special thanks to Loz, Mika, James (and his poof bf) and of course my boy and his crue. <3
Lots of fun was had and the trip home with Loz was quite eventful, involved being stranded in oxford, making a tent out of umbrellas, being questioned by policemen and travelling home in the back of a van. Funtimes.
My last day of college was today. Really glad its over so I can properly relax over summer (I also need to find a summer job). Feeling quite pleased with myself on the most part (apart from in psychology) but I better not blow my own trumpet too much until my results come through.
Also.... Love to everyone in london. Especially to my gang (you know who you are) I miss you all loads and will see you all sometime soon.
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My Dad has just taken my sister to the hospital to have a major spinal operation, she has scoliosis, which is curvature of the spine. So basically they have to put metal rods all down her spine to prevent it from curving any more, in the process they have to take out a few ribs etc so they can get the rods in. So it is a massive operation, she will be in hospital for weeks and off school for nearly a year. Shes only 13 she must be absoloutely terrified, and theres nothing anyone can do to 'make it all right'
I have so much work to do but I cant concentrate at all, i'm just so worried about her, even though she is a complete bitch to me most of the time, she is still my little sister and I love her loads.
In other news
I am no longer single. :D
So Ashley "is a happy bunny, and i'm mad, honest, ask my boyfriend" (I couldn't help it, haha ;P)
So yes, Charlie Ben subtley asked me out last night, I knew what he was asking but pretended not to, it was fun to string him along a little bit. He will be reading this and will hit me when he sees me, he beats me, while wearing his wifebeater vest and his chavvy chain. :P
( Weekend update and pictures )
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I'm just about to leave on a little road trip to Brighton. Its nice and sunny outside so ill guess we will have the roof down with the music blaring out.
*gets excited* Its so fucking early for a saturday morning though, I should be asleep in bed. Oh well.
(And yes, if you havent already seen them, go see the pics of me in my last post- its what happens when you have time on your hands, your friends are on holiday and your too lazy to travel to see anyone. Im pleased. I look buff.)
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Loz and I went to museams yesterday. We saw Dinosaurs. It was fun.
We then saw Ella and went shopping to oxford street, followed by film and internet crap then sleep.
Went to camden today and bought some lovely things
Will be at Henry J Beans from 7ish so you should all come and buy me a birthday drink. =D
Then i'll be at going to Stay Beautiful with my hoes.
This entry is like a list.
A shopping list.
Apples
Milk
Bread
Cheese
A Buff Boy
Drugs
Alcohol.
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Awww. I feel so loved.
Thankyou everyone for txts/posts and tiings.
And thankyou to Lozzenge for my bird pen <3 x forever and my mammoth. I love them.
I got an ipod. I am happy. If I had a fanny i'd SO shove it up there, its beautiful.
Also, I got a nice expensive bottle of champagne so i now feel all expensive, 'cus im worth it' etc.etc.etc
Just about to go over my Nan's for dinner so yet more presents to come from her and my Mummy.
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Yesterday I did a fat line of K before I walked into town to do some shopping, I ended up walking around aimlessly with dirty hardtrance in my ears. It was fun.
Tonight i'm going to Storm. It will be brapicus.
I'm also really looking forward to my b-day and the weekend. :D
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I dropped my phone at slimelight a while backand lost the keypad. Ive been using a pokey stick (dont laugh) to answer phone calls ever since and txting is just impossible.
So. Does anyone have a spare nokia 3310 keypad they could send me. (or even better if someone wants to donate a spare phone that accepts an orange simcard I would be extrememly grateful.) I know that probably wont happen so just a keypad would suffice and save me from not being able to txt for all eternity.
Thankyou =o) xxxxxx
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